Currently, and for actually a very long time, I have been in the situation you described. And it also began in a rather similar manner as what you described.

For the past year and a half I have been involved with AA but have had, and still have, strong negative reactions to the Christian tone and the concept of its deity called God. I've tried to address this by looking at the Steps from the standpoint of the Four Noble Truths and the Eightfold Path, and it works rather well. But it doesn't align well with the way my Agnostic sponsor wants me to 'work the program'.

Perhaps my Monkey Mind has prevented me from meeting the proper teacher. Perhaps it is another factor that has me in a situation that I am just not ready for such.

But I did get a lot out of your website. Thanks.